The boy from Idaho

So as u know by now my first "love" was from Florida. Now you think I would get that long distance relationaships don't always work especially when you've never met the guy. Well I figured I had learned my lesson I was kind of taking a break from guys....until David came along. David was just random, he requested to be my friend again through facebook. We were just friends for a while texting each other here and there I really didn't think anything of it there was no flirting just two friends I guess.

Then eventually it started. Again we realized how much we had in common and so on. Now with David I felt that it had been different from Matt. He seemed more mature and so sure of himself and I really liked that which is why I was so attracted to him. It all happened kinda fast same way with Matt, but before I knew it I was booking, again, another flight to Idaho Falls to go and see him. This time I actually went thru with seeing him, and I had the most fantastic time with him. Everything seemed natural with him like it was right ( apparently thats how it feels with every boy you develop feelings with ) So I spent a weekend ok doing things with just me and him. When I left I had a feeling I would see him again and of course everything went back to normal the whole texting all the time.

Then one day it all changed. I started not getting anything from him at all. I didn't wanna be the kind of person who freaks out and is all why aren t you texting? What are you up to? I let it go for about a week then I mentioned it to him and he said it was because school was keeping him busy. So i said ok and then for another two weeks it had been going on and at that point I'd text him and he wouldn t reply. It pretty much got to the point where I just stopped caring. As much as it hurt I knew it was over. We went on with out speaking for about a month before he apologized.

At this point I now know that long distance just doesn't work. Or maybe for some it does and I'm not someone who can deal with it I guess.

Oh well......

Round One....

So I've never actually been in love with anyone.....ever. Or at least until last June. Thats when I met Matt. Good ole Matt. And let me just start by saying, I never knew how much guys sucked until I really started paying attention. And by that I mean seeing past their good looks and nice asses, I now realize that they may all be the same.

Anywho, so I decided to give that whole Are you Interested crap on facebook a try. Little did I know that would be the start of all my problems. This is how I met Matt. It started off with casual conversation, writing cute notes back and forth to each other. Then we upgraded it to texting, which turned into phone calls, which led to skype.

Damn skype...lol

As I got to know him more and more he seemed like the perfect guy. He was dorky but sexy which I loved and we had so much in common. We text everyday from morning til night, it was great.

Oh and btw he lives in Orlando, FL.

So as I got myself into this deeper, I began to develop feeling s for him he was pretty much all I thought about and I was all he thought about too. It was all very cute and lovey dovey. Eventually we said I love you too each other and I felt like I really meant it. And as weird as this sounds cause he lives in FL and Im in New Mexico, marriage sort of came up and kids.

Of course nothing this good last forever. I remember that night I got a call from him saying he had a mental breakdown and asked for his ex to come over to his apartment and they got back together.....

Now here s the better part just earlier that day I had booked a flight out to Orlando to go and see him in two days....and just earlier that day he had told me how excited he was and that he was cleaning everything etc..

I cannot even describe how I felt that night, I seriously felt as if someone had punched me in the stomach a thousand billion times. I got maybe a half an hour sleep that night.

And what hurt the most is that he didn t even care. So I pretty much was just tossed to the side like garbage so he and his ex could live happily ever after.

As if I didn t think it could ve gotten any worse....or funnier, about three months later I heard from him again and he said he had broken up with his ex because nothing he did could make her happy.....big suprise.

So we talked for a while and he apologized and said he wanted me back. Of course I made the mistake of saying yes, and why I said that I'll never know, but I did and it was almost like it was before but this time I didn't feel love towards him at all. I felt empty and at that moment I knew I had moved on. I can t remember exactly how it went down but he turned everything around and said it was all my fault that it wasn t working out, so it was poor him. I swear I have never been so relieved to let a guy go I swear lol. But anyways thats pretty much my story of my first love. =)